I realised last night that since the Bryn/Becky/Claire fallout I have 3 friends that I can call my own: Rachel and Emma and Duncan. Rachel and Emma have young children so they pretty much have their own lifes and their priorities are different now. Duncan I must admit I haven't been in touch with properly for a good few months but he hasn't been in contact with me either; I mean Milque and Lusk were our common threads, we would put the world to rights and dicuss the bands all night but these bands have gone now and well, I'm not sure that we'd miss each other a hell of a lot if we didn't hear from each other ever again (and I'm not being disrespectful here).
So, I guess what I'm saying is I sometimes feel like that awkward teenager again, the one who didn't really have any mates but just knew people she went to school with/lived on the same street as. I found Jamie Baine on FB, you know from college, I've had some contact with him via text so I sent him a friend request and added a message asking how his holiday was....he accepted the request but didn't reply to my question. I sent a second message to Colin after he replied to me but haven't heard anything from him either. I'm sure if Jason was reading this he'd say, "why do you feel the need to contact people who don't bother with you?", how would I answer him? I'm not sure why I try and contact people instead of holding out to see if they bother with me; I think friendships are important I guess, having Jason as a husband is different to having friends, not less important but I suppose if you have friends then you must be decent, interesting person right?....right???